Here's a bit of a British literature lesson for you. The term "sea change" was first used by Shakespeare in The Tempest meaning metamorphosis or alteration. Charles Dickens later uses the term in A Christmas Carol describing the shift in attitude from Ebenezer Scrooge near the end of the tale.
Sea change is part of our lexicon, but it is also exactly what I am feeling right now as I transition from 29 to 30.
Within the past few months, I made an incredibly odd decision to leave the comfort of my job to be a freelance writer and editor. I've been writing for local publications, editing instructional documents, and alternating between feeling absolutely terrified and anxiously proud.
As this adventure has unfolded over the past few weeks, I have done hard work to determine the critical aspects of what makes me, well, me. I write by hand in a journal every day, following guidelines set forth from The Artist's Way. I have worked on relationships with family and friends to figure out who to surround myself with on the difficult days full of rejection. I curse at my computer when I have writer's block and trudge across town with a full tote bag full of any form of writing instrument I may need in case the spark to write comes to me.
In those times I've avoided writing I sewed a quilt, made a trio of candles, and finished reading books that had sit on my to-be-read list for years. I've taken long walks around town, sat at my apartment, and driven to other cities just to find a change of location. I have had the opportunity to get to know Madison's great baristas and try coffee all over the city.
The shift from summer to autumn has always been a bit of a challenge for me, from elementary school and beyond. When I was in school, I disliked having to transition from an easy summer schedule where I could either play or work to my hearts content to having to schedule all of my activities, schoolwork, and jobs down to the minute. Even though I haven't gone back to school in fall for five years, I'm still struggling with those same changes. This time, just as I am figuring out what makes me happy and what I want to do with the rest of my life. Instead of following along with the flow, I am turning against the waves and ensuring I'm doing what is best for me for the first time in what feels like forever.
I wouldn't be able to grow so much if it had not been for my overly supportive family members and a partner who is willing to trust me when I want to follow my dreams.
Have you had a sea change moment in your life? Or are you struggling with the seasons changing too? I'd love to hear how you take care of yourself in moments like these.