I've been listening to a lot of Wilco lately. Jeff Tweedy's voice is akin to a comfort blanket, and as of right now, I'm grasping onto any form of comfort as possible.
While driving home from my recent trip up to Door County, my sister's boyfriend, a radio DJ, played What Light by Wilco. Earlier in our trip, we were bonding over our shared passion for their music, so I sent a quick text to him asking for a Wilco song on our way home. I felt so appreciated having someone listen to my wish and immediately respond. If you haven't heard the song, there is one specific lyric that has been in my mind almost every single day.
I am making a few changes in my life and finding that light inside of myself to be more creative and to write. As I am beginning to reconnect to the aspects of my life that mean the most to me, such as connecting to my community, I have to remind myself that all of my actions, no matter how silly they may seem, are right for me. They might not look right to someone who is not in my specific scenario, so I can't let anyone say what I am doing is wrong.
Part of the aspect of not allowing someone to make judgments of your life is to really surround yourself with the right people. To go even further, it is about surrounding yourself with the right people who truly know you. For the past few months, I had been lying about my happiness to everyone. I lied to myself, my boyfriend, my friends. By changing that mindset and becoming more transparent about my feelings has helped so much. Being vulnerable is scary, and I am not perfect at it, but it has made a difference in my life of which I am proud.
I share these aspects of my life with my friends and my readers because whenever I do, I somehow find someone else who is in a similar season in their life. We're all dealing with something, positive or negative. Keep finding that light inside of yourself and never tell anyone that what they are doing with that light is wrong.